sorry for not posting much lately..
err.. nothing much. westlife alot..
today.. bad day. loads of things happened. loads of ppl crying, being sad, unhappy. lots of things happening.
im sorry guys, i really am...
westlife - don't cha (live face to face tour 2006)
watching nicky bryne in the video makes me go higgggh!
hot hot hot hotttayyy! whoo! dontchaaa!
lol. westlife new album - where we are, nov 30th 2009.
anyone wanna buy for me ? =)
nights ppl. watch the video!
Westlife <3 hot hott nickyy
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
sorrry ppls! lazy to update much...
hmm....singing competition that day, dawn and i dance. dikir puteri. nice tradisional malay song.
then today nothing lo. ed board meeting 2 periods, then run around the school. play with ppl's grapes and carrots. then go kacau 2H drama practice. SORRY! xD it was fun! "we're soaring!! flyyyyiinng!!!" hahahaa.
hmm....singing competition that day, dawn and i dance. dikir puteri. nice tradisional malay song.
then today nothing lo. ed board meeting 2 periods, then run around the school. play with ppl's grapes and carrots. then go kacau 2H drama practice. SORRY! xD it was fun! "we're soaring!! flyyyyiinng!!!" hahahaa.
Friday, October 23, 2009
to different person now
> who was the one that said can be friends again. lemma. if really can be friends again, then we would be talking k. kk. talk to other ppl can la, comment on other ppl can la, but thisFRIEND cannot la is it. friends my pretty arse la, friends. dont say can STILL be friends, coz we freaking aint friends now. friends dont do this to friends. dao di what you want, i already did all i can, but you still treating me this way, you think i very neng shou is it. IM NOT A ROBOT!!!!!!!! i got feelings k. treat me like im what?! your shitt ar. pkm. i've had enough of ppl treating me this way! SICK of ppl treating me like im invisible, coz i aint fucking invisible. cant see me? your eyes got problem, go get some specs. le~ imagine someone do this to you, what would you feel? try think with your own brain la k. use your hati abit. dont treat certain humans like shit, coz one day ppl will treat you like shit too, you want?
Eulene, i love you, this not for you ;)
i wonder.. what are friends for. define friends.
what makes you qualify as a friend of someone?
what does someone have to do to be your friend.
if the term "friends" are too shallow, then what about "good friends" or "close friends"?
what are they? how do friends treat friends?
>sigh. its so tiring, trying to be YOUR friend, but i still continue trying, because you're a great person. but its so, so tiring. i try to be close to you, i try to talk to you, but you just treat me differently, on a hierarchy, im one or two steps lower than you and your friends. i wonder why its just you. the others are fine, but i just wonder why you wont want to tell me stuffs, why you would tell everyone else, but me. am i that different? havent i done enough to deserve your trust? sometimes i feel so used, you only come to me when you need things done, but other than that, im just a shadow. its sucks, im telling you, it fcuking sucks. though it wasnt like this before, we were quite okay, then suddenly you de-ranked me to levels lower than where you are on the social ladder. i still have my friends, but i also want to be a friend of yours, who you can talk to. but no, you wont tell me stuff, you wont tell me whats going on. do you know i feel when you dont look happy? do you know, i still care. oh yeah, you probably would know, because you would hear from other ppl that i ask around about you and whats going on with you. i just dont get why, you wont talk to me. i dont get why im just your 3rd hand in work. it sucks! i try to be good friends, but you just treat me like im invisible! just because you're famous, and popular. whatever happened to when we played around? those time are gone, arent they, since you became more and more popular. gosh. i just hope that one day you will realise it. i'll still continue being your friend for now, anything you want me to help you with, i'll do it with an all willing heart, but at the same time, hoping and hoping, that one day you'll consider me a FRIEND. because friends tell friends important stuff, like you wont be coming for the reunion. recently i've given up trying to talk to you, because i know you wont talk back, but i still care, i hope you realise it one day, friend.
what makes you qualify as a friend of someone?
what does someone have to do to be your friend.
if the term "friends" are too shallow, then what about "good friends" or "close friends"?
what are they? how do friends treat friends?
>sigh. its so tiring, trying to be YOUR friend, but i still continue trying, because you're a great person. but its so, so tiring. i try to be close to you, i try to talk to you, but you just treat me differently, on a hierarchy, im one or two steps lower than you and your friends. i wonder why its just you. the others are fine, but i just wonder why you wont want to tell me stuffs, why you would tell everyone else, but me. am i that different? havent i done enough to deserve your trust? sometimes i feel so used, you only come to me when you need things done, but other than that, im just a shadow. its sucks, im telling you, it fcuking sucks. though it wasnt like this before, we were quite okay, then suddenly you de-ranked me to levels lower than where you are on the social ladder. i still have my friends, but i also want to be a friend of yours, who you can talk to. but no, you wont tell me stuff, you wont tell me whats going on. do you know i feel when you dont look happy? do you know, i still care. oh yeah, you probably would know, because you would hear from other ppl that i ask around about you and whats going on with you. i just dont get why, you wont talk to me. i dont get why im just your 3rd hand in work. it sucks! i try to be good friends, but you just treat me like im invisible! just because you're famous, and popular. whatever happened to when we played around? those time are gone, arent they, since you became more and more popular. gosh. i just hope that one day you will realise it. i'll still continue being your friend for now, anything you want me to help you with, i'll do it with an all willing heart, but at the same time, hoping and hoping, that one day you'll consider me a FRIEND. because friends tell friends important stuff, like you wont be coming for the reunion. recently i've given up trying to talk to you, because i know you wont talk back, but i still care, i hope you realise it one day, friend.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Monday, October 19, 2009
This is MY blog
read the title. this blog happens to be mine and i have full rights to typed whatever i want, whenever i want.
so happens when i was posting the previous, "fcuked up " i was really feeling fucked up with all the crap that was typed out. i felt EXACTLY what i said i did. im SORRY im a freaking melancholy. im sorry i easily feel stuffs. im sorry i think too much. im sorry i always seem to be finding faults with myself. but thats just the way i am. and this blog is one of my main outlet. so mind my writing. if you're offended, let me know.
to . and ...... : at least have the balls to put your real name if you wanna comment. thanks
fcuked up ; i was just being very angry at myself. wondering why im now in this position. when i used to be there. didnt mean to offend anyone. i know im not normal like you all. i know im problematic and i need help. i'll admit that. my mind is tortured with my own thoughts. my moods are affected by my own mind. everything is internal. on the outside i look fine but there's a raging battle going on inside of me all the time. i can hear the screaming in my head even right now. i try to put up a strong front whenever im around you guys, all the #@$(&#@ but im still a girl on the inside. im still a weak little piece of shit that cant control my thoughts, my feelings, my actions. its agonizing. my head is always spinning around, always getting a headache,feeling as if my head is gonna blow up with all the thoughts running around. one moment i think that okay this is fine but the next, i want to commit suicide. i need help.
and writing helps me a little sometimes. so im SORRY to anyone i've offended along the way. im really sorry.
so happens when i was posting the previous, "fcuked up " i was really feeling fucked up with all the crap that was typed out. i felt EXACTLY what i said i did. im SORRY im a freaking melancholy. im sorry i easily feel stuffs. im sorry i think too much. im sorry i always seem to be finding faults with myself. but thats just the way i am. and this blog is one of my main outlet. so mind my writing. if you're offended, let me know.
to . and ...... : at least have the balls to put your real name if you wanna comment. thanks
fcuked up ; i was just being very angry at myself. wondering why im now in this position. when i used to be there. didnt mean to offend anyone. i know im not normal like you all. i know im problematic and i need help. i'll admit that. my mind is tortured with my own thoughts. my moods are affected by my own mind. everything is internal. on the outside i look fine but there's a raging battle going on inside of me all the time. i can hear the screaming in my head even right now. i try to put up a strong front whenever im around you guys, all the #@$(&#@ but im still a girl on the inside. im still a weak little piece of shit that cant control my thoughts, my feelings, my actions. its agonizing. my head is always spinning around, always getting a headache,feeling as if my head is gonna blow up with all the thoughts running around. one moment i think that okay this is fine but the next, i want to commit suicide. i need help.
and writing helps me a little sometimes. so im SORRY to anyone i've offended along the way. im really sorry.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
fcuked up
cant have the best of both worlds. realise im not one of them anymore. its all different now isnt it. just because i dont have the same type of friends as you all. just because i mix with different types of people. just because im more chinese ed. or hokkien what ever you call. just because im not PURE like you all. just because sometimes i have problems. just because i grew up different. just because im not that into studying. just because im more playful. just because i went away for a while. just because you think it was a mistake. jsut because i think its right. just because i was trying to help my friends out. just because we have different friends. just because i do some bad stuff. just because i cant stop. just because i have feelings for people. just because i like different people than you do. just because i dont look like you. just because im not someone big in position. just because im not a favourite. just because im not influential. just because im not doing what you told me to. just because i dont know how to do it. just because just because im depressed. just because i can get emo. just because i dont have your faith. just because i have my doubts. just because i can get angry. just because i have feelings. just because i cry. just because im not happy all the time. just because i let you down. just because im not what you expect of me. just because i enjoy my life. just because you think this is all wrong. just because i speak out what i think. just because i try to be honest. just because i dowanna keep it all inside. just because i go to sleep every night thinking all these stuffs. just because i dream this. just because i wake up in the morning to the same night sky. just because .just because....just because im not like you. just because I'M NOT YOU. Just because I'M ME.
Teardrops on my guitar
Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see
What I want and I need
And everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful
That girl he talks about
And she's got everything
That I have to live without
Drew talks to me
I laugh 'cause it's just so funny
I can't even see
Anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love
He's finally got it right
I wonder if he knows
He's all I think about at night
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do
Drew walks by me
Can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She better hold him tight
Give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
And know she's lucky 'cause
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do
So I drive home alone
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down
And maybe get some sleep tonight
'Cuz he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do
He's the time taken up but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into
Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see
I fake a smile so he won't see
What I want and I need
And everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful
That girl he talks about
And she's got everything
That I have to live without
Drew talks to me
I laugh 'cause it's just so funny
I can't even see
Anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love
He's finally got it right
I wonder if he knows
He's all I think about at night
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do
Drew walks by me
Can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She better hold him tight
Give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
And know she's lucky 'cause
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do
So I drive home alone
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down
And maybe get some sleep tonight
'Cuz he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do
He's the time taken up but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into
Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see
Monday, October 12, 2009
err, time to blog. where to start leh. hmm. my mummy merajuk-ing now. coz i say wan than mee not nice. ishh. umm exams are OVER! whoooots. lol. err. wedding last weekend, damn syok meet all the relatives, and BABY MANDA!! amanda i mean. so i cuttte!!!!!. everyone say look like me. look like i was a baby time, came home check my baby photo, really damn alike wei., photo coming soon. lol friday night dinner at ku ma's place...1 somehting ka go home. next day 6 oclock wake up. 7 go ku ma's house again, be ji mui. haha.watch the guys get played. so tired wei. haha. then came home after lunch took a nap, wake up get ready again. go dinner at Traders. so nicee. lol. amazing food. wonderful couple. neways, sat with justin, ness, sis, yee quan, nelson, pui yee, and 3 cousins who is ku cheong's brothers sons. whoooo.~~~ busy smsing that night. ada story. haha. then my prawn FLEW!. ishk. sia sui betul wei. LOL. after dinner went redbox. took da biggest room. LCD screen.Long long long couch. sing sing sin. reach home at 4. too tired wake up for church the next day. woke up lunch time went ku ma's house again. sit there the whole afternoon. waiting for baby amanda to come. she's adorable i tell you. after that came home around evening, starting to feel unwell. lol. im getting bored. haha.
congratulations to ruixin and yih liang =)
congratulations to ruixin and yih liang =)
Saturday, October 3, 2009
i just fell back into the deep dark pit i spent so much effort climbing a thousand miles out of.
lema, mirror rubiks gone 3 pieces.
lema, mirror rubiks gone 3 pieces.
Zhong qiu jie kuai le!! sorry dunno whats it called in english,
HAPPY MOONCAKE DAY ar? XD. duno la. pek guik chap goh.! big round white moon!
yue liang yuan, yue liang....somethingg. haha
DANNY!!!! lanterns together k tomorrow!! dawn's house. hahah
HAPPY MOONCAKE DAY ar? XD. duno la. pek guik chap goh.! big round white moon!
yue liang yuan, yue liang....somethingg. haha
DANNY!!!! lanterns together k tomorrow!! dawn's house. hahah
dun like ___ alr. now just as gooood friends, tau? dun like d, but the guan1 xin1 eh feelings is still there, as a GOOD FRIEND. =) understand?
yang perasan, janganlah terasa sangat, takkan nak cakap pasai awak. X)
yang perasan, janganlah terasa sangat, takkan nak cakap pasai awak. X)
wanna update ar...si liao lar. cant remember anything.
er..
monday. go back school. umm duno la. tuesday pun tak tau la. my things keep flying downstairs into the rain. damn pek chek. come home, emo nia. then wednesday slept at 9.30 woke up 10.50 the next day. first time so early. but no use pun. still so tired. aih dunno la. dowanna blog d.
need to calm down now....like sesak nafas. jsut now msn too many ppl. too fast. until hard to breathe. just wanna go love my o2mania. bb.
er..
monday. go back school. umm duno la. tuesday pun tak tau la. my things keep flying downstairs into the rain. damn pek chek. come home, emo nia. then wednesday slept at 9.30 woke up 10.50 the next day. first time so early. but no use pun. still so tired. aih dunno la. dowanna blog d.
need to calm down now....like sesak nafas. jsut now msn too many ppl. too fast. until hard to breathe. just wanna go love my o2mania. bb.
Monday, September 28, 2009
if by any chance, you still do visit my blog, i just wanna apologize with all my heart for all those offending blog posts some time back. im really sorry. i was wrong to say all those stuffs. i hope that you'll forgive me and not be angry at me anymore. wish we can still be friends like before. =)
back to school .
back to school.
back to school.
back to school.
back to school.
BACK TO SCHOOL.
whooooo~ tralalallala
back to school.
back to school.
back to school.
back to school.
BACK TO SCHOOL.
whooooo~ tralalallala
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Beautiful beautiful song.
a very meanigful song, and a beautiful video that made me cry.
the lyrics in the video are translated to english but the chinese version means so much more.
disclaimer : this song ISN'T pointed at anyone. no hard feelings
Chinese version :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J6fn3XIJPdA&feature=related
English version :
KISS-Because I'm a girl
the lyrics in the video are translated to english but the chinese version means so much more.
disclaimer : this song ISN'T pointed at anyone. no hard feelings
Chinese version :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J6fn3XIJPdA&feature=related
English version :
KISS-Because I'm a girl
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Friday, September 25, 2009
Kenangan terindah
Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang telah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang telah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah
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after
surprise belated bday / primary mini reunion
title tells you what happened ytd. wheee~
yeah so it was Lyn and Wei's belated bday. hahaha, supposed to be at ema's house , but she's admitted hospital... get well soon ema! so changed to my place, waa fai ti fai ti clear up the place. lol. then the guys started coming.lol. so worried they'll get bored. LOL. but thankGod they entertained themselves. lol. who knows what they were talking and laughing so much about. lol. ying wei brought his whole collection of rubiks. can fall in love. hahaha then lyn and wei came, expecting nothing, thought just normal come my house chill watch movie, but, jeng jeng jeng, SURPRISE! sing bday song, ying wei play piano. haha then start eating lo. kena perli coz i cooked pasta.LOL. eat eat, take pictures, laugh laugh laugh, play mahjong, chor tai ti, o2mania, watch bloody valentine, eat pop corn. hahah. after most ppl went back, went outside the road with joshua, lyn and wei, ask wei keat take his ginormous bicycle come let me ride. hahah. almost fall down! lol. amazing amazing amazing day.
thanks to :
Emanuelle (even though you couldnt make it, you still helped alot! ily)
Pei Huah
Shyn Yih
Wan Wen
Matthew
Wei Keat
Ying Wei
Joshua
Heng Lin
YuHang
Yu Sheng
for helping us make the surprise a success! lol. lets meet up again some time. nyehehe.
and also thanks to matthew, wei keat and heng ling for teaching me chor tai ti. X]
gosssh, al of them change so much! LOL
yeah so it was Lyn and Wei's belated bday. hahaha, supposed to be at ema's house , but she's admitted hospital... get well soon ema! so changed to my place, waa fai ti fai ti clear up the place. lol. then the guys started coming.lol. so worried they'll get bored. LOL. but thankGod they entertained themselves. lol. who knows what they were talking and laughing so much about. lol. ying wei brought his whole collection of rubiks. can fall in love. hahaha then lyn and wei came, expecting nothing, thought just normal come my house chill watch movie, but, jeng jeng jeng, SURPRISE! sing bday song, ying wei play piano. haha then start eating lo. kena perli coz i cooked pasta.LOL. eat eat, take pictures, laugh laugh laugh, play mahjong, chor tai ti, o2mania, watch bloody valentine, eat pop corn. hahah. after most ppl went back, went outside the road with joshua, lyn and wei, ask wei keat take his ginormous bicycle come let me ride. hahah. almost fall down! lol. amazing amazing amazing day.
thanks to :
Emanuelle (even though you couldnt make it, you still helped alot! ily)
Pei Huah
Shyn Yih
Wan Wen
Matthew
Wei Keat
Ying Wei
Joshua
Heng Lin
YuHang
Yu Sheng
for helping us make the surprise a success! lol. lets meet up again some time. nyehehe.
and also thanks to matthew, wei keat and heng ling for teaching me chor tai ti. X]
gosssh, al of them change so much! LOL
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
By your side
Put your music player on shuffle.For each question press the ‘next’ button to get your answer.You must write the name of the song down no matter what!!!
If someone says ‘Is this okay?’
You say: remember the magic by brian mcknight
["the secret of tomorrow is to live your dreams today.....you opened up my eyes to a new world.....so just remember the magic, one more time..."]
What would best describe your personality?
Poker face by lady gaga
[hahahaha. personality la dei!! haha not face]
What do you like in a guy/girl?
In the Ayer by Flo- Rida
[no comments. hahah the guy put his hands in the ayer?? lol. party into the AM ? ]
How do you feel today?
The reason by Hoobastank
["I'm not a perfect person, there's many thing i wish i didnt do...." yupss. true.]
What is your life’s purpose?
The remedy by Jason Mraz
[no comments.]
What do your friends think of you?
Never had a dream come true by S club 7
[I never had a dream come true?? gasps. the last time i did this, it was LOVE STORY, now never had a dream come true pulak]
What do you think of your parents?
Light on by David Cook
[no comments]
What do you think about very often?
anywhere but here by Hilary Duff
[true]
What is 2+2?
Kiss and sell by the maine
[i dont see the connection. XD. 2+2 = Kiss and Sell??]
What do you think of the person you like?
Let go (frou frou cover) by Boys Like Girls
[yess yess, let go...wheee~ good thing not I wanna by AAR]
What is your life story?
Its not over by Chris Daughtry
[WOW, inspiring. haha its not over]
What do you want to be when you grow up?
Single Ladies by Beyonce
[NOOOOO!!! i dowanna be a single ladie!! ]
What do you think when you see the person you like?
What makes a man by Westlife
[Tell me what makes a man.....mm hmm...true.]
What do your parents think of you?
Bring it all back by S club 7
[thanks mummy and papa!! ]
What will you dance to at your wedding?
Leave out all the rest by Linkin Park
[oh wow. emo much? haha. its a WEDDING!]
What will they play at your funeral?
A beautiful mess by Jason Mraz
[it does sound like a funeral song. but im a beautiful MESS?? cant deny.. XD]
What is your hobby/interest?
Big city dreams by Never shout never
[yeah, so dont give me bottles >.<]
What is your biggest secret?
High school musical 3 spring musical medley
[my biggest secret is ...]
What do you think of your closest friends?
Heart without a home by Westlife
[awwww....a heart without a home, a rebel without a cause...awww no!]
What should you post this as?
By your side by Tenth Avenue North
If someone says ‘Is this okay?’
You say: remember the magic by brian mcknight
["the secret of tomorrow is to live your dreams today.....you opened up my eyes to a new world.....so just remember the magic, one more time..."]
What would best describe your personality?
Poker face by lady gaga
[hahahaha. personality la dei!! haha not face]
What do you like in a guy/girl?
In the Ayer by Flo- Rida
[no comments. hahah the guy put his hands in the ayer?? lol. party into the AM ? ]
How do you feel today?
The reason by Hoobastank
["I'm not a perfect person, there's many thing i wish i didnt do...." yupss. true.]
What is your life’s purpose?
The remedy by Jason Mraz
[no comments.]
What do your friends think of you?
Never had a dream come true by S club 7
[I never had a dream come true?? gasps. the last time i did this, it was LOVE STORY, now never had a dream come true pulak]
What do you think of your parents?
Light on by David Cook
[no comments]
What do you think about very often?
anywhere but here by Hilary Duff
[true]
What is 2+2?
Kiss and sell by the maine
[i dont see the connection. XD. 2+2 = Kiss and Sell??]
What do you think of the person you like?
Let go (frou frou cover) by Boys Like Girls
[yess yess, let go...wheee~ good thing not I wanna by AAR]
What is your life story?
Its not over by Chris Daughtry
[WOW, inspiring. haha its not over]
What do you want to be when you grow up?
Single Ladies by Beyonce
[NOOOOO!!! i dowanna be a single ladie!! ]
What do you think when you see the person you like?
What makes a man by Westlife
[Tell me what makes a man.....mm hmm...true.]
What do your parents think of you?
Bring it all back by S club 7
[thanks mummy and papa!! ]
What will you dance to at your wedding?
Leave out all the rest by Linkin Park
[oh wow. emo much? haha. its a WEDDING!]
What will they play at your funeral?
A beautiful mess by Jason Mraz
[it does sound like a funeral song. but im a beautiful MESS?? cant deny.. XD]
What is your hobby/interest?
Big city dreams by Never shout never
[yeah, so dont give me bottles >.<]
What is your biggest secret?
High school musical 3 spring musical medley
[my biggest secret is ...]
What do you think of your closest friends?
Heart without a home by Westlife
[awwww....a heart without a home, a rebel without a cause...awww no!]
What should you post this as?
By your side by Tenth Avenue North
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
waaaaa... damn Freaking sien today. urrrrggghghh. waste my time sit at home do nothing.. slept 6 am summore mummy 11.30 wake me up d. XS. go lunch come home online online online, oso SIEN i tell you.wanna sien until DIE d. then sien ka 5 oclck ballet dowanna go.......URRRRRGGGGHHthen thursday night have to go. gong lo! F@#*($&#(?@&$@#.
not i hate ballet. its just i feel i myself very STUPIAK. should have went 5 oclck class today. blergh.instead i sit home and cut cardboard untill hand swollen. stupiak scissors. XSXS
not i hate ballet. its just i feel i myself very STUPIAK. should have went 5 oclck class today. blergh.instead i sit home and cut cardboard untill hand swollen. stupiak scissors. XSXS
sense number >27
september 21st
still public holiday so cant go watch movie due to expensive tickets. lol. woke up around 12 something...bathed, ate lunch, online, then dad wanted to fix the shelf so went up lur, since the pieces in my room. then daddy keep fighting with me say i put wrong piece. LOL! i just sit there and tell him which piece go where, everything else, he do. hahah. then last minute saw james say on facebook bout go orphanage play with kids. ma terus sms him, haha, less than 15 minutes justin and james came and fetch me d. lol. sorrrry~~ dad!!! neway, dad fisnished the shelf, while i was at batu maung playing with little kids. lol. theyare so cute. had a good exercise la. haha. then went mcd after that. and beach. saw shiny stuff on the beach .lol. came home, high with weilynn on the phone. hahah i sound bored now. yes i am. coz im hungry and got no food to eat. TT.
still public holiday so cant go watch movie due to expensive tickets. lol. woke up around 12 something...bathed, ate lunch, online, then dad wanted to fix the shelf so went up lur, since the pieces in my room. then daddy keep fighting with me say i put wrong piece. LOL! i just sit there and tell him which piece go where, everything else, he do. hahah. then last minute saw james say on facebook bout go orphanage play with kids. ma terus sms him, haha, less than 15 minutes justin and james came and fetch me d. lol. sorrrry~~ dad!!! neway, dad fisnished the shelf, while i was at batu maung playing with little kids. lol. theyare so cute. had a good exercise la. haha. then went mcd after that. and beach. saw shiny stuff on the beach .lol. came home, high with weilynn on the phone. hahah i sound bored now. yes i am. coz im hungry and got no food to eat. TT.
Monday, September 21, 2009
yesterday
wake up go church, go lunch, go home, STUDY. gosssh. i studied
hahah. tried to la. at least
4 and a half hours only 1st 2 chapters of sejarah form 2. damn . haha. study halfway then go help daddy carry up the parts of my new shelf. haha. then one piece one piece clean the dust. lol. after that daddy had to go office, so i sit there,supposed continue study but i went and buffed my nails, then ar...i also another dumb one. just ni buff ka shiny shiny then go and play with the paku for the shelf. all kena scratch. ISH. so continued studying. i think i sms more than i study. haha. daddy came back wanted to fix shelf but he said wanna watch football . MU playing live. belrgh. dun get the point of foot ball. then james called go watch G-force 9.45 with isaac and justin. isaac fetched me. go there no ticket. wait 11.45 wan, haha go play in toys r us. then sat at mcd until they wanna kam tiam oso cant. lol. Gforce ok la. one of the better disney movies lately. compared to UP. haha come home. almost 2. wanted to sleep. but terkena some troubling stuff. so sit there do other stuffs try to calm down. haha. then tido.
wake up go church, go lunch, go home, STUDY. gosssh. i studied
hahah. tried to la. at least
4 and a half hours only 1st 2 chapters of sejarah form 2. damn . haha. study halfway then go help daddy carry up the parts of my new shelf. haha. then one piece one piece clean the dust. lol. after that daddy had to go office, so i sit there,supposed continue study but i went and buffed my nails, then ar...i also another dumb one. just ni buff ka shiny shiny then go and play with the paku for the shelf. all kena scratch. ISH. so continued studying. i think i sms more than i study. haha. daddy came back wanted to fix shelf but he said wanna watch football . MU playing live. belrgh. dun get the point of foot ball. then james called go watch G-force 9.45 with isaac and justin. isaac fetched me. go there no ticket. wait 11.45 wan, haha go play in toys r us. then sat at mcd until they wanna kam tiam oso cant. lol. Gforce ok la. one of the better disney movies lately. compared to UP. haha come home. almost 2. wanted to sleep. but terkena some troubling stuff. so sit there do other stuffs try to calm down. haha. then tido.
Sunday, September 20, 2009
God thank you :)
and all of you who was there with me, thanks alot too. i really needed it and i appreciate it so much :)
and all of you who was there with me, thanks alot too. i really needed it and i appreciate it so much :)
Friday, September 18, 2009
" I think the best thing you can do right now is to find someone who can love you for who you really are. Good mood, bad mood. Ugly, pretty..." -Juno
week update
*yawnssss. im very tired now. physically, and eye-ly. eye gonna close soon. since last two periods of school ad like that. =S
Monday
nothing much, rubiks gal never come, tak main rubiks too. but marissa brought 4x4x4 so play lur, do whole day do tiok one layer nia. haha. both of us sit there stare at the rubiks, as if it gonna solve itself. then ms teh lost her purse. stupiak. how old d? purse also x take care properly. ishhh. do until like wanna spotcheck nia. stupid. come home solve rubiks lur
Tuesday
marissa's problem..aih. stupiak teachers, stupiak students, come kay po. not their problem wanna make it their problem. ish. if you think you not enough problem in your life then you can have all of mine la! dun come and chui su! anyway, today woke up LATE. bus come 11.30, 11.30 only i wake up. must be because raining so x hear alarm then mummy fetch me to school jadi x ambil keys. come home after school. then only remembered. first gate ok, just climb over. after that *#$&@*($&@(#&$@*#$#@(!^(!$*@#?$^@*#^ stupid ass.ishhhkk, dowana talk about it. so kek ki. neway, manage to get my keys lur.stupiak mia. i say stupiak too many times.
Wednesday
cant remember d...remember i pick up the furry-ass dead bug. its kinda cute laa. got pattern wan the butt. then marissa took it scare sumone, tak tau who screamed very loud. haha... but its kinda big and scary looking la, but still. haha its cute! then we started cutting it up with my scissors! eeeew! cut time got like biscuit sound wan.... yerrrr... geli nya lu zai bo...then cut cut cut into pieces, wanted to see the heart and the brain. hahah. cut the head in half, then marissa use my scissors go koh the yucky sticky stuff at the butt there. gelllliiiii. oh ohh then we saw the eggs. hahaha
Thursday
slept late coz doing stuffs. then morning mornint 9.30 dawn called ask i still sleeping. haha normally i would say no i wake up d, but too tired d, terus
Dawn : Hello deii!
Sarah : hmm..helo
Dawn : wake up d ar?
Sarah : huh?
Dawn : You still sleeping zit?
Sarah : Huh? yeaah..
Dawn : oh ok la, you sleep first
Sarah : Ok.
*toink fall asleep again.
LOL. 1st time admit i still sleeping. haha sorry dawn!! lol. neway, last day of school, tiok sui. wanted to colour the fish wan mana tau dunno whose stupiak ass go lock the lock. cant open. junaidah pun takde key. waaa. really man. go all over find pin then standing there watch yunfang try pick the lock, cant work! gave up in the end. just bring the fishys back to class to colour. then nadhirah and junaidah and dawn go cut the loack, damn funny. haha. come back with thursday eh books. waa then all start rush seni. supposed draw for nadhirah but then was colouring fang's nemo. damn funny. ask fang to colour her fish she said "har??! ask me colour ar??!" XD her expression damn funny. end up she draw for nadhirah and dawn. OMG the shark damn cute!! hahaha. added one spongebob for nadhirah. haha. the shark seriously cute. hhaha. then dawn come wanted to colour, then that fangus start siao d. dawn's fish end up got one green eye and one pink eye. her nemo is yellow and brown. the whole picture damn funny. ahahah. then forced to go bilik media, go there rush the nemo thing again. then got stupiak3 kerja khusus. ishkkk. after that recess lur...no appetite. go back class, saw ppl crying..wonder what happened. must be got problem lur... i wish you all well X]science time mei chelle damn high. make us laugh like what la wei. hahaha. after that, became kinda moody...x tau y. go back .had to sweep floor, clear up the stupid mess we made just now. tak da mood d....coz sleepy i think. maths time just quiet listen to teacher. falling asleeep d. lol.post office busy. haha then after school start d.. nyehehehe. actually nad, jun, dawn and i plan wanna wet fang wan. then she found out. bluek! so change target. wanted to do mei chelle. but mei chelle and her BIGBIGBIGBIG bottle. waa crazzzzy!! man. haha. ended up she never take care her HUGE bottle properly kena i take and run then dawn ask form 1 to lam chelle. damn funny. then start running la. haha. kennnaa baikbaik . lol but not as bad as mei chelle. haha. sorrry yun fanngg!!!! poured tinge on you!! sorrry! XD. like that lur, come home, terus bathe, sit sms for one hour, then go ballet. waaaa. damn tiring!! sweat untill leotard alllll wet!!! and i hate my techniques!! all so weak. jumps also cannot jump. feet also so jelly. see ms lau jump ni, waa.so nice man! i wanna be like her!! =S come home watch tv lur. my favourite. haha. watched some stupiak show with no ending then watched The Happening. haha. kinda lame but quite chi4 ji4 lo some parts. hahah sis and i sit there "arrrr!!! coming d! coming d!!! *cover face" then papa just sit there eat his noodle so calm "dun watch la so scared". hahaha family moments. lol.
now my eyes really wanna close d. LOL.
gd night!
sorry no colours. lazzzzzyyyyy~~!!
Monday
nothing much, rubiks gal never come, tak main rubiks too. but marissa brought 4x4x4 so play lur, do whole day do tiok one layer nia. haha. both of us sit there stare at the rubiks, as if it gonna solve itself. then ms teh lost her purse. stupiak. how old d? purse also x take care properly. ishhh. do until like wanna spotcheck nia. stupid. come home solve rubiks lur
Tuesday
marissa's problem..aih. stupiak teachers, stupiak students, come kay po. not their problem wanna make it their problem. ish. if you think you not enough problem in your life then you can have all of mine la! dun come and chui su! anyway, today woke up LATE. bus come 11.30, 11.30 only i wake up. must be because raining so x hear alarm then mummy fetch me to school jadi x ambil keys. come home after school. then only remembered. first gate ok, just climb over. after that *#$&@*($&@(#&$@*#$#@(!^(!$*@#?$^@*#^ stupid ass.ishhhkk, dowana talk about it. so kek ki. neway, manage to get my keys lur.stupiak mia. i say stupiak too many times.
Wednesday
cant remember d...remember i pick up the furry-ass dead bug. its kinda cute laa. got pattern wan the butt. then marissa took it scare sumone, tak tau who screamed very loud. haha... but its kinda big and scary looking la, but still. haha its cute! then we started cutting it up with my scissors! eeeew! cut time got like biscuit sound wan.... yerrrr... geli nya lu zai bo...then cut cut cut into pieces, wanted to see the heart and the brain. hahah. cut the head in half, then marissa use my scissors go koh the yucky sticky stuff at the butt there. gelllliiiii. oh ohh then we saw the eggs. hahaha
Thursday
slept late coz doing stuffs. then morning mornint 9.30 dawn called ask i still sleeping. haha normally i would say no i wake up d, but too tired d, terus
Dawn : Hello deii!
Sarah : hmm..helo
Dawn : wake up d ar?
Sarah : huh?
Dawn : You still sleeping zit?
Sarah : Huh? yeaah..
Dawn : oh ok la, you sleep first
Sarah : Ok.
*toink fall asleep again.
LOL. 1st time admit i still sleeping. haha sorry dawn!! lol. neway, last day of school, tiok sui. wanted to colour the fish wan mana tau dunno whose stupiak ass go lock the lock. cant open. junaidah pun takde key. waaa. really man. go all over find pin then standing there watch yunfang try pick the lock, cant work! gave up in the end. just bring the fishys back to class to colour. then nadhirah and junaidah and dawn go cut the loack, damn funny. haha. come back with thursday eh books. waa then all start rush seni. supposed draw for nadhirah but then was colouring fang's nemo. damn funny. ask fang to colour her fish she said "har??! ask me colour ar??!" XD her expression damn funny. end up she draw for nadhirah and dawn. OMG the shark damn cute!! hahaha. added one spongebob for nadhirah. haha. the shark seriously cute. hhaha. then dawn come wanted to colour, then that fangus start siao d. dawn's fish end up got one green eye and one pink eye. her nemo is yellow and brown. the whole picture damn funny. ahahah. then forced to go bilik media, go there rush the nemo thing again. then got stupiak3 kerja khusus. ishkkk. after that recess lur...no appetite. go back class, saw ppl crying..wonder what happened. must be got problem lur... i wish you all well X]science time mei chelle damn high. make us laugh like what la wei. hahaha. after that, became kinda moody...x tau y. go back .had to sweep floor, clear up the stupid mess we made just now. tak da mood d....coz sleepy i think. maths time just quiet listen to teacher. falling asleeep d. lol.post office busy. haha then after school start d.. nyehehehe. actually nad, jun, dawn and i plan wanna wet fang wan. then she found out. bluek! so change target. wanted to do mei chelle. but mei chelle and her BIGBIGBIGBIG bottle. waa crazzzzy!! man. haha. ended up she never take care her HUGE bottle properly kena i take and run then dawn ask form 1 to lam chelle. damn funny. then start running la. haha. kennnaa baikbaik . lol but not as bad as mei chelle. haha. sorrry yun fanngg!!!! poured tinge on you!! sorrry! XD. like that lur, come home, terus bathe, sit sms for one hour, then go ballet. waaaa. damn tiring!! sweat untill leotard alllll wet!!! and i hate my techniques!! all so weak. jumps also cannot jump. feet also so jelly. see ms lau jump ni, waa.so nice man! i wanna be like her!! =S come home watch tv lur. my favourite. haha. watched some stupiak show with no ending then watched The Happening. haha. kinda lame but quite chi4 ji4 lo some parts. hahah sis and i sit there "arrrr!!! coming d! coming d!!! *cover face" then papa just sit there eat his noodle so calm "dun watch la so scared". hahaha family moments. lol.
now my eyes really wanna close d. LOL.
gd night!
sorry no colours. lazzzzzyyyyy~~!!
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
This is where I can be who I really am.
Not an angel, but not a Devil either.
No need for masks, no need for covers.
Just being who I am, it's so pleasurable.
If I'm happy, then I'm happy.
If I'm not, then there's no point keeping it inside.
I show who I am, I show what I feel.
My opinions aren't kept to myself.
I can finally speak my mind.
and NO ONE critisises or discriminates me for that.
Scream if I want to, run, jump, hide if I desire to.
Sulk if I have to, cry if it makes me feel bettter.
Even fall asleep on the table
Still no one laughs at me for that.
Do whatever I want, to my enjoyment.
Just being who I am, it's so pleasurable.
Not an angel, but not a Devil either.
No need for masks, no need for covers.
Just being who I am, it's so pleasurable.
If I'm happy, then I'm happy.
If I'm not, then there's no point keeping it inside.
I show who I am, I show what I feel.
My opinions aren't kept to myself.
I can finally speak my mind.
and NO ONE critisises or discriminates me for that.
Scream if I want to, run, jump, hide if I desire to.
Sulk if I have to, cry if it makes me feel bettter.
Even fall asleep on the table
Still no one laughs at me for that.
Do whatever I want, to my enjoyment.
Just being who I am, it's so pleasurable.
Monday, September 14, 2009
revenge
4x4x4!!! whooots. lol. still doing it thought. lol. marissa bought supposed lend yunfang but that girl tak mai pulak, haha lent me. lol. waa. see oso tao hin d. lol semangat wanted to solve myself but ...waa. haha do whole day do tiok one layer oni. lol. coz 4x4x4 takda center mia. lol. crazy mann. haha. my bus finally quieten down, every one like guai guai sit in their places only one or 2 standing, and GOT PLACE FOR ME TO SIT. praise God. lol.eating some very oily weird lollipop looking chicken and very very very oily cucur now. =s
wow. i just realised we're all backstabbers, and betrayers. we all do this. go to A to talk about B, then go to B to talk about A. go to C to talk about A,B. and A,B,C sama sama talk about us behind our backs. walao. then A say to me she dun like B, but in front of B, waa do ka best fren best fren. damn geng this world. then later A tell B something ask B dun tell anyone, but B go to C tell C, and ask C not to tell anyone. isnt this already betraying? [all example]
WE ARE ALL BACKSTABBERS. dont say you're not. cause you are.
wow. i just realised we're all backstabbers, and betrayers. we all do this. go to A to talk about B, then go to B to talk about A. go to C to talk about A,B. and A,B,C sama sama talk about us behind our backs. walao. then A say to me she dun like B, but in front of B, waa do ka best fren best fren. damn geng this world. then later A tell B something ask B dun tell anyone, but B go to C tell C, and ask C not to tell anyone. isnt this already betraying? [all example]
WE ARE ALL BACKSTABBERS. dont say you're not. cause you are.
I cant believe my school attendance for August was perfect.
whooo~
keeping it up for september.
and october
and november.
nyehehehe.
stomach so gastrict-y.... TT
but i wanna go school. lol
guitar geek rocks.
paradise -you are my God, rocks too.
off to school. bb
whooo~
keeping it up for september.
and october
and november.
nyehehehe.
stomach so gastrict-y.... TT
but i wanna go school. lol
guitar geek rocks.
paradise -you are my God, rocks too.
off to school. bb
updatess.
friday 11.09.09
happy birthday eulene. X)
found a book in library called -eye tricks-
whole book full of stereograms mia. haha. waaa i try to see until eye pain still cant see. lol. even yunfang can see...blek. after school mummy fetched me, followed her to evergreen hotel for seafood buffet dinner with her department ppl. waa.. the fresh salmon there tai pah. eat until wanna explode. still cant see the pictures. XS.
saturday 12.09.09
happy birthday bernard. X)
woke up saw claudia's msg.. watched the sept 11 thingy, discussing with claudia. haha. got ppl jump down from the stupid building, crazy mia.
floorball tournament...went at 1 something, picked eulene on the way. reached there at 2. mana tau found out firebrands finished playing at 11. stupid. summore kena ppl ask "what you doing here? why you come? finish d then you come" stupiak. feel like slapping him. i wanna come then my problem la. got anything to do with you ar. left around 4 went home wanted fetch mummy t5o dog show at times square, but not in time d, so sis drop me at church. ate dinner with carmen... owhh owhh!!! finally can see the picccs. haahaha so nice...! xdd after church, supper lur...sis supposed to come, wait3 still havent come. everyone finish d went off, i still there waiting... eating my char siu pao. =s
sunday 13.09.09
wake up, went traders for AOG sunday service. coz paradise ma. xdd. nice song. lol. then pastor daniel preached. so funny. lol. the way he talk so semangat. lol.tired oxo not tired d. lol. after that went buffet again at traders. blek! im gonna grow fat, mummy! stop bringing me for buffets. haha. paradise ppl ate there oso. then sis said wanted go ask for picture, but in the end dont dare. haha. bought the newest paradise album, and another older live album. come home, sleep telus. xdd. wake up watch tv, online, play guitar geek. excellent game. the best since o2jam. now wanna play again. haha
"I'm through with love..." - Mary Jane
"A life without taking chances, is no kind of life at all " -Westlife
"It's the dream afraid of waking, that never learns to dance. It's the heart afraid of breaking, that never takes a chance. " -The Rose
friday 11.09.09
happy birthday eulene. X)
found a book in library called -eye tricks-
whole book full of stereograms mia. haha. waaa i try to see until eye pain still cant see. lol. even yunfang can see...blek. after school mummy fetched me, followed her to evergreen hotel for seafood buffet dinner with her department ppl. waa.. the fresh salmon there tai pah. eat until wanna explode. still cant see the pictures. XS.
saturday 12.09.09
happy birthday bernard. X)
woke up saw claudia's msg.. watched the sept 11 thingy, discussing with claudia. haha. got ppl jump down from the stupid building, crazy mia.
floorball tournament...went at 1 something, picked eulene on the way. reached there at 2. mana tau found out firebrands finished playing at 11. stupid. summore kena ppl ask "what you doing here? why you come? finish d then you come" stupiak. feel like slapping him. i wanna come then my problem la. got anything to do with you ar. left around 4 went home wanted fetch mummy t5o dog show at times square, but not in time d, so sis drop me at church. ate dinner with carmen... owhh owhh!!! finally can see the picccs. haahaha so nice...! xdd after church, supper lur...sis supposed to come, wait3 still havent come. everyone finish d went off, i still there waiting... eating my char siu pao. =s
sunday 13.09.09
wake up, went traders for AOG sunday service. coz paradise ma. xdd. nice song. lol. then pastor daniel preached. so funny. lol. the way he talk so semangat. lol.tired oxo not tired d. lol. after that went buffet again at traders. blek! im gonna grow fat, mummy! stop bringing me for buffets. haha. paradise ppl ate there oso. then sis said wanted go ask for picture, but in the end dont dare. haha. bought the newest paradise album, and another older live album. come home, sleep telus. xdd. wake up watch tv, online, play guitar geek. excellent game. the best since o2jam. now wanna play again. haha
"I'm through with love..." - Mary Jane
"A life without taking chances, is no kind of life at all " -Westlife
"It's the dream afraid of waking, that never learns to dance. It's the heart afraid of breaking, that never takes a chance. " -The Rose
You're my God
I found life in You
You're the only one who came eternally
To set me free
You're my God
My life changed when your victory came to earth
So I forevermore
Will be Yours
I run to you
'cause You are the ony one
I run to you
Your love has lifted me higher
Higher than the cares of this world
When I'm with you
Your love has set me on fire
I will life my voice and praise you
'cause I love you
You are my God, yeah-eh-eah, you are my God
You are my God, yeah-eh-eah, you are my God
You reign above
Every knee will bow before You
You reign above
Every tongue confess that You are Lord
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
As I watched my skin tear apart, slowly, it bled.
continuing the previous post. hmm. hold on, wires connecting.
connecting....25%
connecting.....50%
connecting.....73%
connecting....97.2&
connection stalled at 97.2%
ok well so as you can see. wire conenction is not complete. which means i probably start craping halfway through. anyways. yeah kinda down mood i guess? wunt say emo, later kena again, XD.
and um yes im antilove. XD. sounds so bad but seriously. i just.....*shudders. cant take it. not only when i think of liking someone or anything, i go like "tcheah right, that youwld NEVER happen. man i dowanna go through all the heartache and headace again mann.", but even when i see other couples and all, eg my sis and bf...i have the same though "it would never work out well. she's in for trouble." mummy keep saying hava a positive outlook, but mummy, im so sorry i cant. whee~ umm yeah. my life's kinda messed up lately, ok well not lately, my life's been messed up for da past 3 fucking months. and i dont know what to do with it.sigh. at first thought it was over but nope its not. second time thought gao tim d but nopes. then now? thought finish liao but..sigh x tau la. later got this problem then that problem then another thing chut su pulak. tao hin you know. damn it man. seriously. i dowanna do anything can ar? God ar...please please i know you do best at gao tim-ing ppl's life right. can help me ar? gao tim everything, let everything run like how its supposed to be, that means like how you originally planned it, boleh? t'rima kasih manyak manyak. X)
umm..swimming never go dunno 2 or 3 weeks d... cant rmb. lol. then stopping for september... after that dunno ler..wanna take inter found. exam next year. mummy say concentrate mur on dance lur...how leh?? aih...another thing wanna tao hin now. ishhk
sigh think about school ni i wanna cry d. got 48 more days of school left only!!!! TT TT TT TT
X'C X'C X'C. sigh......school damn fun. its not just school its life. and 48 days...sigh sure pass extra fast mia. then holidays d....sien nia. what to do in holidays??? nothing to do pun. sien si wa!
i miss the pass.when i was happy.when i was in a small congregation.when i was 12.running around keong hoe.when i busy manyakmanyak with church.when i x emo.when we used to tie dragonflies with strings.when i laughed all the time. when life was just pure candy.but who says life now is bad? the pass didnt have a rubiks cube.the pass didnt have the mirror rubiks.the pass didnt have smk conventgreenlane. the pass didnt have me loving ballet somuch. the pass didnt have me sopping around.the pass didnt have me lost in my life.
connecting....25%
connecting.....50%
connecting.....73%
connecting....97.2&
connection stalled at 97.2%
ok well so as you can see. wire conenction is not complete. which means i probably start craping halfway through. anyways. yeah kinda down mood i guess? wunt say emo, later kena again, XD.
and um yes im antilove. XD. sounds so bad but seriously. i just.....*shudders. cant take it. not only when i think of liking someone or anything, i go like "tcheah right, that youwld NEVER happen. man i dowanna go through all the heartache and headace again mann.", but even when i see other couples and all, eg my sis and bf...i have the same though "it would never work out well. she's in for trouble." mummy keep saying hava a positive outlook, but mummy, im so sorry i cant. whee~ umm yeah. my life's kinda messed up lately, ok well not lately, my life's been messed up for da past 3 fucking months. and i dont know what to do with it.sigh. at first thought it was over but nope its not. second time thought gao tim d but nopes. then now? thought finish liao but..sigh x tau la. later got this problem then that problem then another thing chut su pulak. tao hin you know. damn it man. seriously. i dowanna do anything can ar? God ar...please please i know you do best at gao tim-ing ppl's life right. can help me ar? gao tim everything, let everything run like how its supposed to be, that means like how you originally planned it, boleh? t'rima kasih manyak manyak. X)
umm..swimming never go dunno 2 or 3 weeks d... cant rmb. lol. then stopping for september... after that dunno ler..wanna take inter found. exam next year. mummy say concentrate mur on dance lur...how leh?? aih...another thing wanna tao hin now. ishhk
sigh think about school ni i wanna cry d. got 48 more days of school left only!!!! TT TT TT TT
X'C X'C X'C. sigh......school damn fun. its not just school its life. and 48 days...sigh sure pass extra fast mia. then holidays d....sien nia. what to do in holidays??? nothing to do pun. sien si wa!
i miss the pass.when i was happy.when i was in a small congregation.when i was 12.running around keong hoe.when i busy manyakmanyak with church.when i x emo.when we used to tie dragonflies with strings.when i laughed all the time. when life was just pure candy.but who says life now is bad? the pass didnt have a rubiks cube.the pass didnt have the mirror rubiks.the pass didnt have smk conventgreenlane. the pass didnt have me loving ballet somuch. the pass didnt have me sopping around.the pass didnt have me lost in my life.
Friday, September 4, 2009
"Destiny is the bridge you build to the one you love." - My Sassy Girl (Hollywood Version)
someone explain the above statement to me.
current feeling : Love dun exist for me. no fairytale endings, no happy dates, no nothing. and yet i've watched 2 soppy love stories in 2 days in a row. #$@#% them. love SUCKS big time.
someone explain the above statement to me.
current feeling : Love dun exist for me. no fairytale endings, no happy dates, no nothing. and yet i've watched 2 soppy love stories in 2 days in a row. #$@#% them. love SUCKS big time.
Thursday, September 3, 2009
feeling left out, uninvited, discouraged.
not part of them, not one anymore..
do i still fit in? or have i changed that much?
am i still one of you? or maybe not i guess.
am i that different from you guys? seems like it
what does language matter? i dont know.
mummy was right... can i handle this? X'C
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
short update
friday 28.08.2009
erm.. go out lur. sien nia. say wanna go together but they ka ki disappear mia. walk here walk there. waste time. watched aliens in the attic. kinda funny lur. say yan.saturday 29.09.2009
concert!!!! slept early wake up early gel hair..followed mummy to boss' house to feed da cat then went to mr pot for breakfast. the mocha banana sucks! then headed off to dewan....so excited!! lol. went there, take out pointe shoes, ribbon break!!! aaarrrrrrhhh!!!!! why must break today on concert day itself!! faster faster asked mummy help sew..sigh.. so scared it'll break. matt and marc came. wheee~ so long never see them d. haha. rehearsal start lur.. went through once then had lunch then go again but in soft shoes laa. haha. getting more and more nervous. then START. makeup haha.. transformation into a ghost. lol. supposed be fairy. lol. draw draw draw... no one could decide what to do for the eyeliner curls.... so end up take eyeliner pencil and tissue run around the dewan look for teacher to ask. haha. shi hun was there. waaa he concentrate on the drawing like exam. haha. and the 3 tah po hair so much glitter!!!! fairies pun bo... X'C ...after that decided lur eyeliner but guess what?? i draw wrong!!! supposed curl up i go curl down. *&#$&*@#$*@#&*$@#?($&@(# wash off everything i've done, start all over again from foundation. X'C felt like cryinggg... sigh.... after finished everything, change and warm up. waaa. get more and more nervous. LOL. and finally..curtains open... wow that feeling when i took my first step on stage..woah...its INDESCRIBABLE. never felt anything like it before. damn. anyways whole concert went smoothly except the last dance had a little glitch but yeah. it was GREAT. sigh.. .the whole day passed so fast... X'C at night went home, quarreled with matthew.. scolded him f. sorrry!!!! i feel so badd..!!
sunday 30.08.2009
wake up terus apologise to matt. he never reply >.<>ms lau asked to meet at gurney swensens in the afternoon. went lur. haha. cun cun had to sit beside matt. haha. asked him why never reply he just smile and say "forget" ishh. haha after ok d lur. haha laugh laugh laugh in swensens. Ms Lau and Mrs Lau *daughter and mummy treated us all to ice creammm! wheee~ [pics on facebook]. had so much fun. after everyone went back, went Dome to eat with yy and eunice. at night go home made up with matt d.. whee~ haha love youu!!monday 31.08.2009
matt smsed me at 7.36 in the morning!! still sleeping la dei! haha asked whether wanna go out. with marc and yen ying. penang so small oso 4 ppl cant decide where to go. spend da whole morning discussing. lol. matt said 11.30 fetch me but mana tau 12.45 ni come. should have slept longer. sien nia wait for them. almost fell asleep. lol. had time to quarrel with ppl summore they still havent come. lol. ended up going to BJ. went bowling. haha so scared laa. scared my fingers drop off. lol. but it was fun laa. hahaha. played pool after that too. then matt drop us home lur..marc drove. haha. matt more stable driving. XD. sigh they go back kl d.... X'C
Monday, August 31, 2009
i absolutely absolutely absolutely absolutely absolutely absolutely absolutely absolutely absolutely absolutely absolutely HATE being a Sanguine Melancholy!!!!!!!!!!!
URGH!
URGH!
Friday, August 28, 2009
14 Solok Mahsuri 5 ; Carbonara
change place today come my house. XD. lyn wanted spaghetti. she brought 20 sausages and our chocolate chip cookiesss. hehehe... then cooked lur. keep forgetting to put this and that. XD. emanuelle and i went out to buy the cheese and spaghetti noodles. gosh, never bring ema out to a supermarket man! she bought a whole can of whipped cream! and ate it just like that! bluek!!! jeelat! XD. cooked finished. we were supposed to watch My Bloody Valentine mia...but they all all so damn scared, ended up watching Over Her Dead Body and Mr and Mrs Smith. haha ate more choc chip cookies though. haha. at night go ballet. same la. haha. i sound boring....XS sorry...takda mood now. damn. so tired summore have to wash hair and wait for it to dry. X'C
Thursday, August 27, 2009
same place ; different day
went to emanuelle's house again. stupid digi cant use. supposed meet huah at 1.30 but we couldnt contact her and she didnt know where ema's house is so she went and waited at badminton court till 2.30 when we decided to go down and look for her. shout the whole N-park. "huah!!! where are you??!" LOL. sorry afternoon nap ppls!! XD neways, huah was already waiting for 1 hour plus and we were in the room eating chocolate chip cookies. damn. sorrry!!!! huah, lyn and wei played lur... ema and i just sit there watch. concert coming d..dare not playXD later muscle ache toh cham liao. haha. then went to da roof top balcony snapped lotsa pics..haha. ma like that lur... after that went ballet....till 12... nothing much la. haha
huah , one word, YENG.
the final moments ; wish it would never end
*screams last concert practice in 45 mintues! the last 2 hours of practice...aih.... im so nervous..! feel like im not ready enough.. keep messing up the shasay pas de bure [duno how to spell] part...! and the jetes...grrrr.... i wanna spend the whole of tonight and tomorrow at da studio...!
Ms Laaauuuuu..........!!!!!!!
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
standard 3 all over again ; except that this time we had cameras
funn dayy. wheee. wke up at 11. bathe, online. mummy came fetch me to ♥ema's house. when i reached ema and family havent eaten lunch. felt so weird, i sit on the sofa, and they eating dinner there. haha then ♥wei came, and 3 of us sat in ema's room for 1 hour plus for ♥lyn to come at 3.talk about guys, talk about girls, talk about gay, tak about les, talk about school, talk about everything. so long never meet d ler!! then ki siao in the room. i started playing with ema's smile shutter. damn coool. *smileee..! then SNAP! haha. we drew a smiley on paper and tried with that but didnt work. tried with the koko crunch box oxo x work. haha conclusion : smile shutter only detect human smiles. XD. but how it noe its human leh?? XD then ema called -5161-... kap siao. haha cant even understand a word -5161- is saying. only ema can understand. -5161- said i sound like ema's mom! bluek XP hot voice. haha. ♥lyn finally came then we went swimming. haha. siao. from ground floor shout to 12th floor ask ema's dad bring her phone down.then we started snapping lotsa picturess. haha. damn crazy. go all around the N-Park pool area snapping pictures. haha. ki siao with da camera. lol. ema's phone died d, we went upstairs take lyn, wei and my phone down, continue snap snap snap. lol. 3smth till 6 smth finally decided went back to ema's house, terus makan. too hungry d. eggs, beans and sausages. ema's dad sliced 2 big tomatoes ask us to finish. but all of them dun eat tomatoes de! ended up i ate both tomatoes. gosh! its nice k....haha i think i look like a tomato now. haha. we changed, then wei went back d... left lyn, ema and me sit there so tired, transfering pictures.lol. dinner couldnt eat much, still full from da eggs and TOMATOES. after that lyn's mom came d. around 9.. they on the way back dropped me at ballet school. waaah.. so tired,eyes can hardly open. haha. practice till 12. everyone abit stim stim but still can talk until cant even hear the music. and shi hun, dunno why extra semangat mia. haha like on drugs. jumping around like damn high. haha. XDXD. came home ler after that.....boil more egss and eat. haha.
tomorrow meeting ♥huah!! i cant wait >.<
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
sore feet ; sore toes ; sore ankles
sigh. stayed up last night sewing the sequins until 5 smth..then delete msgs till 6am, terus Splat. but cldnt sleep coz keep worrrying bout skirt havent done. supposed wanted to wake up 12 smth mia then cun cun in time to bathe tie hair make up. but 10 smth woke up d. sew sew sew finally finish. went out for lunch then went and buy gel, pins, liquid eyeliner*mine dried up already.X) go home start lur. bathe, tie hair..make up...my bun smaller now, wheee. hahah. in2it eyeliner rocks. easy to use and wont smear mia. nice. haha finish everything, took some pictures and sent to mei chelle coz she wanted to see. lol. i looked like ghost and she said its cute. XD, left house like round 4.40, reach cun cun 5.00pm. dewan sri pinang. not many ppl around yet. dr.lee and the stage crew still gao tim-ing the stage marking and everything. ms lau doing costumes. i was the only fairy that went ready with makeup and hair. XP. others all still doing. lol. thought yesterday at studio time already agree all wanna do makeup mia, but ...haha. played around with Julia's Lumix. heee... so funn!! snap snap snap piccs of ppl doing stuffs. all the weird expressions. XD. went on stage tried out the ???? sheet the pun on the stage. damn hard to use!! its so siap, too rough d..almost fell a few times when on pointe. not on pointe oso hard to balance. stupiak floor. sia sui me. then first run start withuot lighting. ok lur...had to watched out spacing coz gota space with da lights. then had a 15 minute break. thought got sausage bun to eat, but guess what?? the little kids ate it all!! and i didnt get my sausage bun! X'C so dissapointed. 2nd run started, lights and music, like real day. haha. nice laa. haha. the lights damn hot. lol. i think can fry egg d. lol.finished abit early than supposed too, but thats good right. haha. pack up lur..saw 10 bucks on the floor beside my makeup bag. i terus shouted "10bucks!! i found 10 bucks!!" hahah. wanted to give ms lau mia, but she said i found it so i should keep it. hahaha so im 10 bucks richer!!! muahahaha.
went dinner, came home, made some calls, arrange wednesday and thursday plans. haha. called ♥huah....she was so excited, she couldnt even talk properly, was like shouting " hey yo long time no chat man!!!" haha. and she speaked english with me >.<" meeting up with ♥ema , ♥lyn and ♥wei tomorrow. then gonna meet up again but with ♥huah too on wednesday. wheeee ~ friday go out with ♥yih, ♥lyn, ♥wei, ♥huah i think, and ♥dragon they all. yayy. haha. so long never met them d. lol. miss them so muchhh. hahah
went dinner, came home, made some calls, arrange wednesday and thursday plans. haha. called ♥huah....she was so excited, she couldnt even talk properly, was like shouting " hey yo long time no chat man!!!" haha. and she speaked english with me >.<" meeting up with ♥ema , ♥lyn and ♥wei tomorrow. then gonna meet up again but with ♥huah too on wednesday. wheeee ~ friday go out with ♥yih, ♥lyn, ♥wei, ♥huah i think, and ♥dragon they all. yayy. haha. so long never met them d. lol. miss them so muchhh. hahah
"today has gone, just to wait for tomorrow"
i miss CGL!! X'C
Monday, August 24, 2009
appreciations
thanks to...
♥ Boys Like Girls
All Time Low
The Offspring
There For Tomorrow
The Maine
All American Rejects
We The Kings
&
Jeremy Kuan >.<
for accompanying me through this long night of threading stupid needles and poking myself with them.
X]
Sunday, August 23, 2009
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slept 3 smth.. woke up 7.45 cun cun in time to leave house at 8.30. but you know la malaysian time end up leave house 8.50. reached mbs late. waited a while then claudia came. with yinfoong and tiffany. walk walk. followed yinfoong to the toilet at da end of the school. then went back to da hall.9 something d they still havent started. memang la malaysian time. saw weilynn, joyce, indy, gary. started got 2 songs. then pastor sam preached. lol. funny guy. sat behind claudia but we were messaging. haha. digi rugi alot man have customers like us. haha. storm perform "we are the reason" its nice. something different. then sggs perform. then recess time lor. go buy t shirts. free food. sit there makan makan talk talk. 1st time ever dun have the "students you have 5 seconds to line up.....students from da canteen please hurry up.......students please keep quiet and straighten up your lines.....good afternoon to teachers and students.....students you may now go back to your classes starting from 2H and 1? ..." haha so memang la we were late to go back. take da chance. haha. yinfoong and tiffany were later, no place to sit, so they sat at the back. haha went back got 2 more songs then talk show. got all the testimony, followed claudia and claudia walk to the far far toilet again. came back time tiff went back d. supposed finished at 12 mia. but mana tau. haha. mummy's car couldnt start... [fast forward] then can start d, come fetch me drop me at ballet... new leotard come d...got sleeve mia. and my chiffon so longggg but teacher said dun alter see whether can grow tall summore not. i never grow tall for 3 years d!!!! X'C after ballet go dance factory do make up lor. my face kena become drawing paper for demo. >.< go home, eat, bathe terus sleep. blek! too tired d, eyes cant open
this morning wake up, go ballet, come home, sleep again. then went gurney. seoul garden. makan makan then come homw. now sewing concert skirt. aaaarrrh!!! too much to sew d!! X'C tomorrow rehearsal.. aih...gota sleeps early..but have ta sew... booohoo.. bb
this morning wake up, go ballet, come home, sleep again. then went gurney. seoul garden. makan makan then come homw. now sewing concert skirt. aaaarrrh!!! too much to sew d!! X'C tomorrow rehearsal.. aih...gota sleeps early..but have ta sew... booohoo.. bb
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